Saturday, April 18, 2009

the cell.

I need something bigger.
higher.
more transparent.
and real.
to enclose me.
to make me belong.
to transcend me,
into a higher existence.
than this flabby and weak,
this lost and disoriented
cell.
that is something like me.
this hallucination of a life,
is taking its toll on me.
I'm tired and drained.
I need to surrender.
It's so hard not to surrender.
it's so tempting and fluorescent,
to let the ocean sink into the earth.
Each breath I take brings in spits of pain.
that I throw up.
multiplied by painful pains.
colors dance in my eyes.
cyan, pink and sometimes green.
my heart hates me.
each cell.
and I need to fall.
with a cell.
in a cell.
for a cell.
or in a grid.
or a spider's web.
or maybe the cell.
won't let me fall.
coz I'm tired.
And I need something bigger.
higher.
more transparent.
and real.
to enclose me.
to tell me that it's fine.
to tell me, I belong.
to transcend me into a higher being.
than the trashy, mundane, third-rate player
cell,
sells me.



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4 comments:

NanyAfterMath*~ said...

perfect!
i feel you, me and everyone around us.

may i have this tomorrow on the checkered moskini piece of paper by a Lamy?
this should be framed; in a cell it shall breathe in.

Innate_Inanenuss said...

Hello Puppete, feenek? I do really miss talking to u?

souonecanobee said...

An amazing piece fits the slide show I just made like a glove I think we both were feeling the same thing at the same time :)
Love it :)

Deluded Fool said...

Its amazing cozit desribes my feelings this particular moment