Monday, October 13, 2008

2028

Have you ever felt that something is so certainly gonna happen, you could almost touch it?



Through the span of her life, nothing tragic has ever really happened.
A couple of heartaches here and there. Maybe some problems. Mere misunderstandings.
But come to think about it, nothing major really happened to her.

While people encountered wars, sudden deaths, drastic losses - she was at home, safe and sound.
While people were shattered all over the place, she kept herself intact.
While people stumbled upon life and spent forever searching for who they truly are, she knew exactly what she is, what she's for and what she's supposed to do.
While people struggled for their rights and freedom, she was granted those on a golden (or maybe just a silver) plate.

When she got bored, she made things up.
She created her own drama, or was willingly sucked in in someone else's.

But all along, her wise heart always warned her that life wouldn't let her go off that easily.
All along, she waited for her tragedy to come.
She waited for the true thing. The real deal. Her own struggle. Her tough fight. Her heroic battle.

All along she waited. And it never came.
She always felt like she's going to die young.
Not that it had to do with anything.

And on the time line of her life she walked
until a messed up version of a ghost from the future started appearing behind the thick fog of the unknown.

She felt it in her stomach.
no no. That can't be. you must be kidding me.
She felt it in her stomach, or maybe above - just a little.
Is this it? Is this my tragedy?
She felt it in her stomach, or maybe above - just a little, and a bit to the left.
Is it me? I will be my own battle?
She felt it in her stomach, or maybe above - just a little, and a bit to the left; beating.
I always knew I'll be the protagonist of my own story, but this.
She felt it in her stomach, or maybe above - just a little, and a bit to the left; beating. breathing.
...in my own war...i fight...me?
She felt it in her stomach, or maybe above - just a little, and a bit to the left; beating. breathing. living.

And on the time line of her life she walks.
And a messed up version of a ghost from the future smirks.
giggles.
laughs.
I am here.
it shouts.
and she shall wait no more.
it twirls around in euphoria
and twirls around in shameless euphoria.
and it ties itself up in a lump and settles.

She felt it in her stomach, or maybe above - just a little, and a bit to the left.


and it rests.
in one of them.
right above her heart.
it rests.




and her battle begins.



9 comments:

marooned84 said...

that was BEAUTIFUL!

I wonder what you mean though, it's very strange. Life without problems is the worst one can face, because he'll simply never learn from his mistakes, meaning he'll never learn at all.

Evaluna said...

*speechless*

Zeee i love this post!!!

Dr.Invisible said...

Love it so much.. U know sometimes I think ppl search for problems just to fill their life wiz action

Vile said...

i lost a couple of tiny blood-vessels in my eyes reading the yellow lines, but that could be just my notebook,
plus i learned something, if i read it on the comments page, they are plain black!

silent observer said...

i love it

sleeplessrou said...

tayeb... this was... awesome!
u know, it's very difficult to move on in ur life smoothly... in fact, problems are what give a true meaning to life, for without them you won't feel the bless of the good times...

As for the question u started ur post with... "Have you ever felt that something is so certainly gonna happen, you could almost touch it?"... well... I somehow tend to feel it almost all of the time....... DO u think this is being pessimistic?

Anyways, again this was a lovely post! :)

Zee Puppette said...

Well I guess problems aren't all that...mmmm..."problematic" after all.

Marooned, I wouldn't wanna tell you the exact meaning behind it, first because they're very personal and I don't want to necessarily limit any interpretation to the strict facts I've based this on..So i kinda wanna leave it up to you, u know =)


Eva,
Aho Enty! =P


N yeah, invisible, some people certainly tend to over-dramatize just for the sake of the rush, or the pity, or the mere attention...


Vile, LOL, I'm sorry...I think you read the post in the "transition phase of templates", so the colors were a bit messed up then n you know...well, at least you've gained some Blogger knowledge heh?? =D


Silent observer,
it loves you too =)


Rou, well, I don't necessarily think you're being pessimistic...maybe just expecting the worst, u know, *just in case*
which definitely would save u a lot of heartache but will make you feel "restraind" to some extent.I don't know if that even makes sense, but..what the hell =)


Salute =)

The.I.inside said...

it's very rare that you read something that capture your essence, My great fear is that stillness will end up in such a mess that will ruin my life for ever, and maybe the greatest fear is that it will go like this for ever.that's My first time here but I loved it surely i will be back

NanyAfterMath*~ said...

poetic. simple. and leaves u with something ti think about.


ps: it needs indesign!