stream of consciousness

happy. angry. frustrated. positive. crazy. astonished.
in pieces. nerdy. sad. satisfied. proud. loved. crappy. tired. excited.
indifferent. lazy. numb.
warmhearted. missed. missing.
lost.
found.
retrieved.
recycled. new. young. shiny. cozy. comfortable.
uneasy. embarrassed.
dark. hard. cheerful. planned.
systematic. prepared. ready. running. powerful. strong. enduring.
exhausted. sleepy. dreamy. imaginable. imagined. fancy.
fantastic. fair. loyal.
friendly. loving. hateful. resentful. broken. shattered.
anguished. scared. secure.
beautiful.
awake. wishing. alone. lonely. telling. waiting.
knowing.
unknowing.
shadowed. pretty. amazed.
ignored. hidden. revealed.
discovered. re-discovered. invented. re-invented.
appreciated. valued. cancelled. thrown. showcased.
logical. closed. opened. ruined. gathered.
peaceful. hurt. enthusiastic. accepted. tolerated.
discriminated against. hopeful. shocked.
whatever.

nothing. I feel none of it. none.
just satisfyingly nothing.